Sometimes I want to throw in the towel.

This blogging world? Can be mean. Recently, two of my blog friends had nasty comments left on their blog. Unsurprisingly, both were by anonymous commenters who have enough balls to talk crap about someone they don’t know, but are too chicken to use their real name or link to their blog.

I think it’s very courageous of bloggers to put themselves out there. I know I’ve been hesitant in the past to reveal some things, but I’m usually met with such positive feedback by such wonderful readers that it pushes me to keep going.

Occasionally I get the judgemental ones. The people that think they know me because they read my words and are quick to supply a fresh comment daily with some condescending words of “advice” or a rude observation.

I usually brush these people off. Because for every mean reader, there’s 10 amazing ones. But as more and more of my friends get attacked, as people who I thought were friendly readers leave passive aggressive comments, I wonder if blogging is worth it.

It’s easy to say I let it roll right off my back. Because I shouldn’t let these strangers get to me. But the truth is it still stings. To have someone dissect you–to have them decide who you are without really knowing a damn thing about you.

I used to get really excited when I checked Technorati and saw that someone new had linked to me. When I crossed into the triple digits I was shocked. People were reading me and it was awesome.

But when someone un-links you? Now that’s a slap in the face. Especially when it’s someone who used to read you often. I’m not upset with this person because I understand. It’s been the same way for me with her blog. Much like friends can outgrow each other, bloggers can outgrow each other too. I read blogs I feel a connection to and if that’s not there, I probably won’t read much longer.

But I was curious. So I sent her an email saying I think I understood why she no longer reads, but wanted to hear the reason from her. In between her explanation was this:

“I do read your blog from time to time, but not like I did before.Β  Mainly because I can go to Such Great Heights and read the same thing.Β  Somehow, five or six of your blogs have turned into one blog it seems like.”

What do you think, readers? Is this true? Has my own voice disappeared and blended into a big blog mush?

If so, I don’t think I should be doing this anymore.

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