I’m having a baby.
I know this to be true. At six weeks I saw it — my little lima bean with a flashing, pulsating heart. At 10 weeks, I heard that little heartbeat, wooshing away at a mile a minute.
I’m having a baby.
As much as I know it to be true, sometimes I can’t wrap my head around it. Michael and I, we created a person. A perfect little person who is growing and swimming and moving its tiny little hands at this very moment — even though I can’t feel that yet.
It started with a pee stick. Well, three pee sticks, because I didn’t believe the first two. Three pee sticks at 7 o’clock on a Monday morning in October. Three pee sticks that I left sitting in the bathroom for a week, just so I could see the proof every time I went in there.
Proof that this baby, our baby, was in there.
I’ve had a lot of proof since then. Two weeks of head-in-the-toilet dry heaving. Two more weeks of tolerable, yet still painful, nausea. One moment of projectile vomit into the bushes next to a very nice restaurant. A shopping trip for new bras.
And most recently, the very beginnings of a belly, a BABY belly, which although right now looks more like a beer-cookie combo gut, will eventually look unmistakably pregnant.
I touch my stomach all day long. Rubbing circles around where I imagine my baby to be. I have fallen deeply and passionately in love already.
I’m having a baby. WE are having a baby.
I am over the moon.
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December 15, 2009 at 10:45 pm
Jenny
How exciting! I can’t wait to read more about your pregnancy experience. I am so happy for you!
December 15, 2009 at 10:56 pm
Britt
Oh, I’m just over the moon happy for you and Michael!
December 15, 2009 at 10:59 pm
Lisa
I’m so happy for you!! And, while it continually feels more and more real at about 5 weeks from my due date I still don’t think it will truly hit me until I see her sweet face :).
December 15, 2009 at 11:02 pm
Kaley
It is truly amazing. You have a miracle inside of you!
December 15, 2009 at 11:07 pm
Taylor
Posts like these make me wish that blogs had been around when my mom was pregnant. As much as I and the rest of your readers enjoy reading your posts, I can only imagine how special it will be when your baby one day can read about how he/she came into the world.
December 15, 2009 at 11:09 pm
Ronnie
Congrats Molly & Michael!
I didn’t have the morning sickness but at 26 weeks it is starting to feel more real – but only in that my belly gets bigger with every blink of the eye! I agree that it won’t feel completely real until I am holding my little girl in my arms!
Pregnancy is a weird and wonderful journey – weird in that there is a little human growing inside of you and wonderful because there is a little human growing inside of you!! Just wait until you can feel the baby move inside of you – you think your in love now – you will fall deeper in love once you experience that!
So are you going to find out what you are having??
December 15, 2009 at 11:17 pm
Jenn @ Paying Myself
I am looking forward to following this next journey of yours!
December 15, 2009 at 11:18 pm
Kez
Congratulations!! That is so exciting. I wish you all the best. What a gift 🙂
December 15, 2009 at 11:23 pm
gemdot
a beautiful beautiful post.
December 15, 2009 at 11:37 pm
Jane
So exciting! And you made me feel much better – I took FOUR pee tests because I just couldn’t believe I was actually pregnant. And now my peanut is six months old. Having a child is getting to be part of an amazing miracle. Congratulations!
December 15, 2009 at 11:38 pm
Heather from the bar
Congratulations!!!
December 15, 2009 at 11:52 pm
Viviane
I’m so happy for you. That must be an amazing experience. I cannot wait for this to happen to me one day (but first I need to meet a man I would actually want to have a baby with so it’s probably going to be a long time till it’s my turn). 🙂
In the meantime, I am looking forward to following your pregnancy on your blog and live vicariously through you. 😉
December 15, 2009 at 11:56 pm
rachel
congratulations molly!! this is so exciting! I am right there with you and going through it all – 28 weeks today. It still shocks and amazes me even though I can feel her kicking and moving and squirming every day!
December 15, 2009 at 11:57 pm
rachel
I’m sure you have a million blogs to read but if you ever felt like checking out my personal one, it’s here and mostly about my pregnancy:
http://brianrachelplus.blogspot.com/
again, congrats!!!
December 16, 2009 at 12:04 am
Lucy The Valiant
Sooo sweet!
December 16, 2009 at 12:25 am
Sonia Thomas
Congratulation!! 🙂
December 16, 2009 at 12:44 am
Reagan
I’m so excited for you. I imagine that this is what I will be like as well. I’ve already got baby fever so badly! Definitely enjoy this time.
December 16, 2009 at 1:42 am
OHmommy
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December 16, 2009 at 2:55 am
qu33nbee
You literally could have written this for me. New bras, puking. I haven’t seen my little alien baby yet, because I’m poor and have no insurance. But I heard it. Its little heartbeat. We created something with a HEARTBEAT. I think it’s still difficult to wrap my head around that.
My belly is poochy, but not pregnant-looking yet. A few weeks ago, everyone said that I would start to show soon. I didn’t think they meant ‘show’ as in ‘look fatter but no more pregnant than you do right now’. I literally can’t wait for the 5ish weeks ’til I feel it kick! I cannot wait to find out what I’m having. I just can’t wait for all of it. I still touch it all the time too. I mean, I know it’s just gassy-ness and fat stores and a lot of stuff that sure ain’t my lime-sized baby, but I will rub it anyway!
I also can’t believe that you’re going on this journey too! I mean, I love you! And you’re having a baby at the same time! Anyway… Congrats again girl. I know you’ve wanted this for a long time. You’re going to be an amazing mommy, and Michael an amazing dad. You two love each other so much, and I’m sooo happy for you both.
Also, sorry this was way too long. I get gushy about babies.
December 16, 2009 at 3:04 am
Paula
Congratulations Molly! So happy for you, I know you really wanted this. 🙂
December 16, 2009 at 9:23 am
KT
Congrats Molly! I know that you have been wanting to get pregnant for a while so this is really exciting!! 🙂
December 16, 2009 at 9:32 am
Amy
aww congrats lady! so exciting! you better post lots of pics within the coming months!
December 16, 2009 at 10:00 am
Stacey
Congrats Molly! I can’t wait to read about the journey! “We created something”, that feeling never goes away. Just the other day when Luke was gently ripping ornaments off of the tree, Rob looked at me and I said, “I know, I know, WE MADE THAT!” It’s awesome amazing fun.
December 16, 2009 at 10:38 am
Shaba
I almost cried reading this. So sweet. I can’t wait to read all about your pregnancy journey.
December 16, 2009 at 10:42 am
Bluebelle
That is so beautiful. I know I don’t want a baby quite yet but reading this, for just a moment, I really did. Congratulations again, I’m so looking forward to reading more…!
December 16, 2009 at 10:46 am
Wiz
OH my gosh! I am so excited for you. I love the way this was written and how in love you are already. Just wait until he/she gets here! I know this is corny, but sometimes when I am holding my baby boy I just feel like my heart is going to burst! (Lame..I know 🙂
The nausea will (Hopefully!) go away soon. Congrats again. I look forward to reading about your pregnancy and am so so glad you decided to stick around!
December 16, 2009 at 10:48 am
itsybitsymama
Everyone will tell you what motherhood is like, being a parent, etc. But it’s not until you are a mom and holding that precious bundle in your arms that you will get it–and LOVE it 🙂 Isn’t it amazing??
December 16, 2009 at 10:50 am
Patience
Congrats!
December 16, 2009 at 11:08 am
Ris
Squeeee! How exciting!
December 16, 2009 at 11:19 am
Ashley
So happy for you! I never understood why pregnant women touched their bellies so much until I became pregnant myself. It’s the only way that we can come close to cuddling that little bean until he enters the world outside the womb.
I had terrible morning sickness that lasted all day long. Eat beans, having protein will help you feel better but I couldn’t stomach thinking about let alone eating meat, so beans did it for me. If it doesn’t ease up and you are like me and almost become dehydrated, ask the doctor for some meds (if that’s what you want). The doc prescribed me Zophran and it did WONDERS!
You’re life will never be the same, but you’ll never want it to be the same either. It’s an absolutely wonderful, amazing, heart warming, emotional, tiring, extraordinary experience to become a mother! I hope you don’t continue too long with morning sickness and that you are able to get over it without any meds. There are lots of other remedies out there, just look ’em up.
And WHY did you wait so long to tell us!?!?!
December 16, 2009 at 11:29 am
mb
Gotta admit – that put a bit of a lump in my throat. I just can’t say how happy I am for you enough. 🙂
December 16, 2009 at 12:37 pm
Just Fine Just Dandy
So sweet. Congrats!
December 16, 2009 at 12:43 pm
stealthnerd
Congratulations!!! This post just upped my baby fever!!
December 16, 2009 at 3:46 pm
noringsattached
What a sweet, sweet post! Totally made me remember my own pregnancy…can’t wait to follow along on your journey!
December 16, 2009 at 4:00 pm
DevilsHeaven
THIS IS AWESOME NEWS!!!! I’m so happy for you!! I’m also so glad you’ve come back to blogging, and I hope you intend to share this journey with us in your usual sweet Miss Molly way!!
December 16, 2009 at 4:21 pm
katherine
Thank goodness nice people are still having babies! I knew I loved my wee ones, starting with the pee stick, but not a thing will prepare you for the feeling when the doc places them on your tummy and you see every perfect part of them and hear those first cries. Pregnancy is liminality – take care of your self (and be prepared to shed it) and open your heart to all the joy in front of you. My biggest piece of advice? YOGA. It helps with the waiting, the body changes, the head issues, the hormone surges and with the patience you will need in endless supply. Savor your bliss – congrats. (Long-time reader and lurker, HAD TO delurk for THIS!)
December 16, 2009 at 4:26 pm
Nilima
yea! Congrats! I’ve been reading your blog for a long time now and never commented, but I just had to delurk for this exciting news! Congrats to you both!
December 16, 2009 at 4:37 pm
Kim
I am so excited for you!! 🙂
December 16, 2009 at 4:40 pm
Mrs. D
Such a lovely, lovely post. Your baby is going to grow up someday and read these words and KNOW how loved s/he is!
December 16, 2009 at 5:58 pm
Pam
See? This is why you can’t stop blogging now! Lovely to show your baby when he or she grows up. Your thoughts will be fabulous for your grownup child. What a chance to share.
December 16, 2009 at 8:04 pm
Katie
Super duper congrats!!! 🙂
December 16, 2009 at 8:58 pm
Chelle
Did the baba ganoush settle okay? Worried about that after you left. Oh my goodness, you looked like a wonderfully, silly happy baby mama today!
And I am wonderfully, silly happy for you and Michael. See you again soon, Molls.
😉
December 16, 2009 at 11:06 pm
Jessica
New to your blog but wanted to say congratulations. Very exciting news!
December 17, 2009 at 9:09 am
Rachel
Yay!! I’m so glad you are hopefully back, and I am so excited for you guys! I hope that this is why you stopped blogging for a bit until you were ready to share the news with everyone, and I hope you’ll be back for good now! I’m so excited for you! 🙂
December 18, 2009 at 12:37 am
Kate
I don’t know you but I will say that I am crying because I’m just so happy for you. I’ve followed your blog for about a year now and I am just so thrilled all your dreams are coming true. Congrats Mom-to-be!
December 20, 2009 at 4:22 pm
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Congratulations!
December 22, 2009 at 2:24 pm
Jen
Gah! I’ve been reading your blog for a long time & I am so happy for you and your husband. You two will make wonderful parents! What a Christmas present!