What is it with families? Does anyone have a normal one? What is normal anyway?
This whole mother/grandmother debacle has me pretty stressed. Even though we had the conversation. Even though Michael told them to back off. Even though I shouldn’t care what they think. (But of course I do.)
Case in point, when I get anxious my stomach cramps up and is not a happy camper. As a result, I don’t eat as much. And as a result of that, my new pants that I bought just two weeks ago are too big. Now yes, I like to lose weight. But this isn’t the way I wanted to do it.
I brought one of my favorite things to eat today in hopes of breaking through the anxiety wall and reminding my stomach how much it loves food. (A lot. It loves food a lot.) I’m crossing my fingers it works.
What? You want to hear more of this ridiculous woe is me I’m losing weight without trying story? OK then.
Another thing that’s been bothering me is the whole engagement thing. Or lack there of, actually. Before the ambush Michael had told me that sometime in the next six months it was definitely going to happen. There was joyful leaping and wide-armed spinning a la The Sound of Music. OK, there wasn’t. But I was extremely happy.
But now I can’t help but think that all this stress, all this pushing…is going to push Michael in the complete opposite direction. I asked him if was affecting is decision. He said no. But who knows.
I promise I’ll move on to a much more stimulating topic tomorrow. Cross my heart. Stick a needle in my eye.
These Little Moments 
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May 2, 2007 at 3:19 pm
clinkny
Oh, Molly Molly Molly. I just want to give you a hug! (And also maybe force feed you gummy bears!) All of this stress isn’t healthy and it’s natural to think that it’s going to affect your relationship. Michael has been a star through all of this and it seems as if he realizes that his family is in the wrong. It won’t affect how he feels about you – promise. Now, EAT SOMETHING.
May 2, 2007 at 3:57 pm
Sass
I can totally understand why you’re stressed. The situation you are in has nothing to do with you and is out of your control (cue stress).
Michael is probably in a weird place and is wondering why his mom and grandmother are acting so inappropriately. I am sure he doesn’t feel any differently about you.
Afterall, you’ve been handling this very gracefully (IMHO).
May 2, 2007 at 3:58 pm
kwarterlifecrisis
i’m sorry that stress is the reason you’re losing weight, but i totally get that sometimes losing weight can suck. i lost 20 pounds during my first year in the real world after graduating college and, while it was awesome and i felt rejuvenated and hot again, i had a closet full of clothes and nothing to wear everything was too big. i had to go out and basically buy a new wardrobe two sizes smaller. it was shitty way to spend money considering i already had tons of clothes that i loved – they just didn’t fit anymore. but yeah, woe is me, right?! 😉
May 3, 2007 at 9:02 am
alissa
Our bodies react the same way to stress, just think about how you won’t have to worry about dieting to fit into your wedding dress! It’s completely natural that you would feel stressed out about all of this, it’s his family and you are going to become part of that! The thing is, Michael has made you a priority so far, there is no reason for him not to continue doing that. Have faith in him and his feelings for you, it will all work out.
Internet hugs for you. xoxoxo
May 3, 2007 at 4:52 pm
Kateastrophe
First of all, thank you for stopping by my blog. Second of all, for many reasons, the first being the Kate Spade shoes, I now officially heart you and plan to be back here a lot too!
Third, I’m so sorry about the stress. I had similar issues a few years ago and it’s just not easy. Good luck!!